Ok, so...it was his birthday, and i've been stressing out WAY too much about it and managed to jedi mind trick myself, and i ended up accidentally having sex with him. (even though we had contagious skin conditions and couldn't even kiss, though i couldn't help but kiss him goodbye anyway)

There's your update. I'm willing to try sex more, but i think i'd like to wait until we're engaged at least, just so that we live in the same place and my mother wont find out. It was a giant weight lifted off my shoulders and i truly for the first time feel satisfied. That's what i wanted. I don't feel horny anymore, and it's such a relief!!!!

He lasted 3 hours....trust me i am more shocked, the man has fucking control!!!!
We tried for round 2 but he was chaffed from the foreplay and couldn't get it hard enough, sure enough later in the day at my mums place, he managed to get quite excited and we were both pissed off.

It REALLY REALLY hurt, for a good 20 minutes, then it felt pretty mediocre (i couldn't even tell it was in most of the time)....i'll admit there was one position that felt really good, but nothing dissimilar to fingering, i more appreciate the closeness, i already tried 7 positions, lol. Yay, thanks guys, i do feel a bit guilty and wrong and dirty, but not as much as i thought i would (because i didn't come i don't feel like its "proper" sex) but i'm more scared i got pregnant even though we used a condom.

That's it!
I don't think i'll share more detail...