I think some of the afterbirth hormones are talking for you as well. OK, so your body changed some, but you can work on ridding yourself of the stretch marks and stomach flab. I recommend you put a lot of effort into this so you feel more confident with yourself. As far as the porn and your resentment of his lying, let me tell you, men also go through an after birth hormone thing as well. He may be dealing with issues through the viewing of porn. He may have insecurities just as bad as you. And by snooping, you have fed this.

I have for years said, don't live with a partner or marry them, if you have any doubts of their being trustworthy, or if you have any insecurities about the other. It is a path to faliure and much heartbreak.

I hope you get yourself situated and on the right path soon, until then, love that baby!