First of all, STOP comparing yourself to other women that have had babies. Each woman's body changes during pregnancy, some more than others. Some women get their pre-baby body back right away for some, it takes a lot of work to get back, and for others it never happens.
You are only 21, with a 4 month old baby and you are not married. It makes perfect sense that you are feeling anxious about things. You are pressuring yourself to be perfect and that is self-destructive. What you need to do is focus on caring for your child and yourself. You worrying about how you look and about your sexual relations with your b/f shouldn't be at the top of your list, IMHO.
As for your b/f's porn habit...if you asked him to stop, then snooped on him and found out he's still watching it, perhaps the porn itself isn't the issue here. Seems to me you both need to work on trust and communication.
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