So, my girlfriend and I were messing around about a month ago. We've had frequent intimacy and no problems ever arose. About a month ago when we were messing around, I was trying not to kill the mood, but I truly had to go to the bathroom real bad. As a result, the thought of accidentally unloading at the wrong time kept crossing my mind. So.. I went soft. First time ever. Fucking sucked.

So almost a month passes without us doing anything, which is largely in part due to conflicting work schedules, plus we don't live together so that's an added curve ball to it.

We were hanging out tonight, things got heated, and bam. No, I didn't have to piss. But SHIT did that embarrassing feeling from before completely take over my fucking mind. So I went soft. Again. For the 2nd time in a row. But this time, for no direct reason.

So, naturally, I feel like there's a big target sitting on my soft patch of dick. Embarrassment overwelms. Now, keep in mind, she's a pretty optimistic team player here, saying it's no big deal and telling me not to worry about it, she understands, etc.

But, damnit! This fucking sucks, and considering I'm super paranoid over every damn thing that happens in my life I can't help but to wonder if this will keep happening.

I don't believe I have a real issue here besides the mind tricks my stupidass brain plays when we start to fool around.

For example, whenever I masturbate, rock solid boner.

When we were fooling around and I was using my hands/mouth on her, rock solid boner.

Shorts come off, thoughts start rolling, and downnnnnn we go!

It's not like I don't find her attractive. I find her insanely beautiful, moreso than any other girl I've ever seen.

YET MY FUCKING BRAIN HAS TO KILL IT.



Anybody else ever in this situation? What did you do? How did you fix it? What were the circumstances? How long did it take to overcome?