....AND, you will no doubt have to see a General Practitioner for the physical effects.
Your health is the main thing right now. Seeing blood is always a sign of a problem. You certainly don't want to be permanently attached to a bag for your 'elimination needs'
Like was said earlier, these docs have seen/heard it all, so there is no need to be embarrassed. You will
not be the topic of discussion at their social events.
We wish you luck, both physically and psychologically. Realizing you might have an addiction is a giant step in the right direction!